anxious.

i am officially down to the one week and one day mark. and holy cow this is insane to think about. im kind of getting into freak out mode, not for fear of going or anything like that, but just that i have SO much to get done. i know i can do it, and i know everything will fall into place, but yall know me. im a worrier. so literally written in my planner, beside my bed, bathroom mirror, everywhere, i have written "dont be anxious, the lord will provide." but funny how seeing words everyday still does not make them sink in. so i just thought i would send this to those of you who are checking up on this blog thing of mine to ask for prayers against anxiousness and worrying. thanks fam!

love.

pops.

happy dads day father mike.

thanks for always making me laugh with those looks, letting me play dj, really teaching me how to drive and always loving me. youre the best, simple as that. :)

love.

be obsessed

so ive been lame and not keeping keeping people posted, but summer school and life has just been keeping me so busy! i feel like i havent stopped at all. but its ok, because me staying busy has kept my thoughts in right here and right now, instead of allowing myself to be anxious about my trip. dont get me wrong, i am STOKEEEDDDD, but for me to prepare myself i cant let the excitement of this trip keep me from learning and growing in the right now state.

like i said, im in summer school taking two classes, and i have gotten into this great habit of waking up really early before class and starting my day off with some jesus time. normally i would just do it in the afternoons, but this has been so great for me. and i have been learning

so much by just starting at the beginning of the day instead of waiting until i had other things on my mind. so ive ben reading (via an online blog) oswald chambers "my utmost for his highest." and it has been incredible for me. every morning while i am eating my honey bunches of oats (with almonds - duh!) and reading what this guys thoughts are on scriptures and really great things he feels the world should know.

todays was titled "are you obsessed with something?" and we can all think of something we are truly obsessed with. for me, its my chapstick...a total necessity for my lips. others it may be burts bees or carmex, or even good ole vaseline. ok, but for real, we all have things that we eventually become obsessed with that control our life. maybe its the need to please everyone, make money, the strongest desire to be in a relationship, obsessed with the way you look, worrying or anything. its so easy in our society to become obsessed because its what we do. but in todays thoughts, he talks about how if we are obsessed with these things we become unbelieving in god. he is so much bigger than ALL of these things...so why do we doubt him? so this is when oswald here talks about becoming obsessed with god. if we become obsessed, nothing else can affect us. god is bigger than all, so if we become obsessed with him, we have no room for anything else, but to let him do what he does to create this life he designed for us!

[ to be obsessed by god is to have an effective barricade against all the assaults of the enemy]

if we become obsessed with the lord we have far more abilities to turn over and stomp down the things the enemy has put in our life and in our heart...we have the ability to know the lord is all you need to please, money is not everything, we are his masterpiece! and no one can tell you that you are not beautiful because to the lord you are, his power can fulfill that desire for relationship because its all that he wants from us, he tells us not to worry and to see how he provides...so be obsessed in the lord. be OBSESSED!

ob.sess [uh b-ses]

-verb (used with object)

to dominate or preoccupy the thoughts, feelings or desires (of a person)

so ill leave ya with one more quote. just wanted to share what i have been learning. go and check this guy out... www.utmost.org its really great.

[god is out refuge...nothing can break through his shelter of protection]

love.